About three years ago, on separate occasions, two men I respect deeply asked me the same question. In both cases, we were in a casual setting. Yet the question was in no way casual to me. Even though I had asked it of myself countless times, I don’t recall ever being asked this by someone else.
I went on to say I don’t believe it is a white-bearded man, like Moses, Zeus, or Noah sitting in a central place with all knowledge of the universe exclusive to himself. If God exists in the nature that we talk about, he/she would be local, not central. God would be here on this balcony in Denver, Colorado, or in a café in Ulm, Germany. Right here, right now, I don’t believe God would be represented by an argument over “my guy” or “your guy” even though I have my own guy. To exist in the nature it is discussed, God would likely be inarguable.
Both men responded by saying “So, something like Consciousness.” I said yes. They both seemed satisfied and the conversations moved on. I, however, was not satisfied.
I knew my answer to the question still began with yes. Yes, I firmly believe in something that I think of and relate to as God. have had spiritual experiences comparable to the burning bush that spoke to Moses. I made a decision one day to stop drinking, prayed for help, and followed a spiritual process to leave the addiction to alcohol behind. Little did I know, that was the beginning of consciously learning and living on purpose. For me, it was as miraculous as “water into wine”. Or, in my case, what was once whiskey (Jack Daniels) into water.
The dissatisfaction with my answer gnawed at me throughout the years. On Wednesday, September 27th, 2023, at 3:42 am, the question found its way back into my mind, demanding a better answer.
If God exists in the nature that we or I think of and long to live by, then what is God would be virtually inarguable. I have heard that God is Love. I am a big fan of Love, yet we argue about Love. My eyes welled up with emotion and tears.
